my life is pretty fucked up currently.

okay so.  I've had no luck finding work.  Was denied for unemployment.  Am currently waiting for TANF aka welfare.  I'm drowning in bills, just got a shut off notice for power and it's now the 9th of June I still have not paid rent.  Nor am I going to be able to pay.  My lease is up next month.  We will be moving, where I'm not really sure. 

My choices are

1. Move to the Beach, WA.
2. Move to Arizona.
3. Drive until I can't drive no more.

 At this point I'm leaning more towards #2, seeing as I wanted to move out there twice before but for one reason or another I wasn't able to.  I have a friend and family that lives down there that can help us get on our feet.  I also have family at the beach that is willing to help as well.  Either way all of our belonging are going into storage and I will be driving. 

I hate this.

depression is real.
depression has kept me away from work for the past 4 days.
depression will not "just go away".
depression won't even budge with 150mg of zoloft taken daily.
depression makes me want to sleep all day.
depression gives me awful headaches.
depression makes me cry and lash out at those closest to me.
depression causes me to hate.
depression sucks.
depression hurts.
depression affects all my choices.
depression slows me down.
depression needs to go bother someone else.
depression.
depression.
depression.